Thursday, 18 June 2015

Entry 5: 5 years soon... Wow

So this entry is a little light in terms of baby talk, but this is kind of the lull period. She's not quite big enough that we're noticing significant changes, but not quite small enough to say nothing is going on.

Never the less I am still VERY excited. It's hard for me to keep my emotions in check most days thinking ahead to the fact that I'm going to be a dad. I think I hide it well for the sake of this being the big reveal to Erica about this diary.

I think I'll be telling her Saturday, as originally planned. Saturday marks our 5 year anniversary. She has something planned and I think she thinks I forgot because I've just been playing off of the fact that I'm very excited for tomorrow with no mention of the anniversary at all.

Looking back at the past 5 years, I cannot believe how far we've come. We have so many stories, adventures and memories. Some good, some bad, most unforgettable. And with this pregnancy I look ahead with a hope that we'll have so many more.

I cannot wait for Saturday to see her face when she finally realizes that I've been doing this all along. That I really DO care. That I don't just pick my teeth with pieces of the journal I've peeled off (DON'T JUDGE ME) and more importantly, when she realizes I really do care and I have been making an effort.

Until next time my soon-revealed super-secret journal...

Thursday, 11 June 2015

Entry 4: Baby is out of the bag

As of this post, everyone knows. We've had quite a bit of repeating of old stories, sharing the same details and people feeling left out because "They didn't know first". But everyone knows.

Now I'll recount who knows what, when and where:

  1. Pat was the first to know. I was weak and told my best friend of nearly 30 years first. It was an emotional dinner. Erica was a little annoyed that I played up her telling her grandma and cousin
  2. Erica's Grandma and cousin found out next. This was primarily in a panic because of Ashley, Erica's cousin, announcing her 6 week pregnancy. 
  3. Next came the big reveal. We went out to breakfast with my immediate family. I told my mom to order something from the Grandma menu, because she's old. AND SHE'S GOING TO BE A GRANDMA. Many tears were had. 
  4. Then we decided to tell Erica's mom on her birthday. Erica got a very clever card that was all about being a new Grandman then put a signature line saying "Oh s***... this was supposed to be a birthday card. It was cute and her mom was very happy for us. 
  5. Next was Erica's dad. This was a tough one because we had his entire family there for another get together. We told him just before diner when he dad mentioned something about "Well when you get pregnant". Her sister (who is also pregnant - about 4 weeks ahead of us) and her Fiancée both knew and congratulated us as well.
  6. And finally, we told the whole world. THE WHOLE THING! That's what facebook does, right? Tells everyone. People young and old, friends we haven't seen in years, Friends we didn't know we had. They all knew. 
It was very stressful and now it's done. Now we simply need to move forward and look ahead to our bright future. 

Until next time my super-secret journal...

Thursday, 4 June 2015

Entry 3: Fears, Tears and Cheers

Well today was the big day. I won't lie it was probably one of the most nerve racking moments of my life. But in a good way. We met our OBGYN today and he seemed very nice, minus a moment of minor panic.

Fears: We enter his office and he sits us down for the first ultrasound. As he moves it around and we see nothing on the screen, he asks "Do you see anything?". Without a second thought I blurt out "Do you!?".

Tears: "Yes I do, see this flicker. It is the hearbeat". I that VERY vulnerable moment where I saw my babies first heart beat, mine skipped one. I shed a tear, but from the eye not facing Erica. I had to be a MANLY-MAN.

Cheers: This was the moment we were waiting for and it was an utter triumph. We have a healthy baby growing inside of Erica and our next appointment should show us more. I can't wait.

Until next time my super-secret journal...